My mother passed on March 11th and I am having definate problems coming to grips with this. We were estranged for the last few years...probably the reason I am having so much trouble. I have been unable to cry, I suppose its shock.. My mother wasn't really that old, at least not in my book but she was riddled with cancer. She fought a heroining battle and is at peace now, thank God.
There are so many unanswered questions that now I will never have answers to. I know she loved me very much but I also know there were so many secrets that she took with her that totally effected my life and our relationship.
If what we have been taught about God and the afterlife is true, I suppose that someday I will have answers.. I just wish that I wouldn't have been so bull-headed..
Mom,
I have and will always love you.. Your life was not an easy life and I know this. Believe me when I say I did learn from the mistakes of our relationship.
I am glad that you have no more pain.
I hope you are able to rest in peace
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